To my friends

Dear friends,

If you are reading this then you clicked on the link I sent you guys. Thank you finally you guys listen. We have been friends for what 10 11 years, since high school right? So you all know me and what I am like. You know that I seek you guys out or just hang with you guys in the background because your lifestyles weren't really like mine.

You all have seen me with numerous kinds of people. Different women mainly, and I have let you guys try and fix the situation, sometimes it work sometimes it doesnt.

But this time I just needed ears to hear my vents I needed someone to listen to me. To hear my cries not just to you but to god as well. I'm sorry it pissed you guys off to the point that you picked up your pitchforks and torches and went hunting.

But please stop your making her think it is me, when it's not. I....just want to sit here in my puddle and grieve, that's what I do. Shes not a normal woman to me. I'm weak against her like superman to kryptonite.

This is why I dont listen to any of you guys. This is why I dont talk to you guys. You guys think what you did and are doing is justice. This is why I hate when she tells me to listen to you guys, you guys make my life worse. When I have nothing you guys are nowhere to be found, now that she is gone for now you all act like I don't matter, when she was here you all wanted to do stuff.

Now that I have nothing left and everything is in flames you all think that you can ruin my life more then it is.

When you reach out to her she thinks it's me but it's not I hate that, she doesnt believe it's not me when all I am doing is just sulking.

Yes I miss her, yes i love her but i am waiting like i always am. So please stay away from her. And just let them be for now. She will come back.

This is why I dont contact many of you guys, because you guys dont listen to me and I hate that. You guys havent changed and you make my life worse.

Just stop leave her alone she will contact me and come back when shes ready. Please just let me die, and let her be happy.