Unconditional love 2

I get asked a lot, why dont I give up like she wants and find someone new.

Yea you guys all start to sound a like after awhile. So I will say this:

Back in high school ya know high school the last four years of hell, in our early teenage years, end of our innocent age. The emo years of our lives, we all went through that stage. If you think you didnt think back you were emo. MOVING ON....... I was dating the school genius and for our monthiversry (yes people do that cringy thing) we exchanged promise rings (yea promise rings) I promised her to be with her and save myself for her (fucking high school) and that if i ever took my ring off it would be a sign signaling that i wouldn't love her anymore and i have found someone that i loved way much more then her (at the time she was the only girl for me like I said high school), didnt last long we broke up and through trial and error we couldn't make it work. But I kept wearing that ring.

Not one woman was worth taking it off for not one so my 7 year search began. (Well I didnt search cause ya know no one was going to beat her.)

Let's go past

2011

2012

2013

Wait stop here 2014 yea stop at this year.

I met someone on a game grand fantasia online she lived in Malaysia I literally thought she was the one like no joke but she went back to school and our relationship ended. We both couldn't get it to work we tried timezones and classes not helpful.

Fast forward maybe about 4 months (2015), I was playing another online game (I am a gamer sorry not sorry) I joined a guild toukeden (never forget where you met the one). They were cool guys and girls but they did tell me about one person that wasn't on but I did want to meet them (I wanted to be nice) and when I messaged her boy was I surprised. Red hair big glasses that showed off her big beautiful brown eyes. I tried to be like psh yea she aight but down inside guys I was like oh my mother effing god that girl is stunning like nice smile and look at them eyes. So I talked to her. I didnt think I was gonna get anywhere with her, but lord and be hold like in eden's song "sex" butttt llllooovvvveeehhhhaaa" (kinda know how to play it on the guitar but another video for another time) I didnt think that it was gonna get serious but it did real fast I mean it even got me on a plane to North Carolina and to room 401 (#neverforgetloudroom). I mean come on how could I be like that was fun but it's over no guys that's when it happened.

I took the ring off. Omg no weiiiii yes weeiiiii I took it off because I found the one the one who gives me chills the one who makes me feel, who gives me emotions, who who brings out the best in me. (Sometimes the worst but ying and yang). I took it off and put one on her finger (so far we are on 2 but there will be more soon FINLAND). For the promise has been foretold that if I shall find another that was fair that I will no longer have tides to your house ye vile wench. For this new fair Madien lady love bug has now taken your place, but that's when THE promise came into play that I will love her forever I mean I said it a lot to her I even wrote it on a calculator, did things i never done before, sending flowers and candy and stuffed animals to people (boy that's touching that's love) cool thing is I never asked for anything back. I just did it for her (that's love y'all that's love).

She has a bad memory and trust me it really sucks sometimes because she would know that I wouldn't just leave out of her life why because I love her stubborn, has to kill herself to be right, beautiful goddess self.

I love her PTSD, depression, and stress too. I dont know why it just means she is real that our relationship will have many courses and roads. When I think I have it figured out nope I don't she turns right catches me off guard, but you know what I love it because it just doesnt show me but her as well that I will fight my kami damn hardness to be with her. (I would even sacrifice a school of small bunnies for her).

She doesnt get it, no one gets it but I promised her I freaking promised her that I would love her till the end of her days, if she is crippled, a vegetable, in a coma, no one will claim me but her. We even got into a phone call we were up late well I was I had school but ya know love bug or die. She asked me if I would love her if she was like that I was like why wouldn't I where would I go ain't no one can fix me, I'm broken she broke me she took not just my heart but my soul my being and loved it. Something no one else has done.

She is the only woman who can make me stop what I'm doing and love her. She doesnt get it I steal looks at her just so I can see her, when i read i face her so i can look up at her. I mean guys i am broken beyond repair but can only be fixed for her.

She has the blue print to me. The voice to calm my soul, to make me bend reality just for her.

Do I want anything from her. No I dont no thank yous no nothing I just want to love her, just hold her. Show her that life with me is a great life. Uhhh why? Because I promised her me, my love, my soul, and I will put up with anything and everything she has.

That's what love does your willing to go through on and off, happy and sad, joy and mad. Tears of all natures, she is my unconditional love. My alma, mi amor.

It's funny really she thinks she gets it and we fall short but she doesnt get it, the fact that I will do anything for her on whim except give up on her, she is the only one I listen to, the only thing that she wanted was patience and that's what i give her. Why because she has my heart, and I ain't want it back nooooo (that song is really good).

But anyway boys and girls more posts to come. Arigato, and I hope to hear from you soon my unconditional love. Please be safe and dont kill yourself.