Reflection
Have you ever stared out your window, and saw your life? Like everything you have done, from the first piece of candy you stole all the way down to the time you woke up this morning. Have you ever sat there staring out and seeing everything so crystal so clear, that you can't stare away. Like watching your first fist fight, and saying to yourself man we couldn't fight back then, or seeing your first kiss and thinking man I remember her I hope she is doing well for herself. I know all this far to well, we all have that window to the soul, a window or a mirror that we stare at and we see our life. Not like the whole life flashes before our eye kind of thing, but like a thorough outlook on our life. Like when you saw that toy another kid had so you cried to your mom till she got it for you. What about the time you promised to do something you said you wouldn't do but you did it anyway, did you smile or did you frown upon that decision.
For me I have had a plan for everything in my life, and as I look at my reflection all I see is a well planned out life. I never gave up on anything even when I did say I give up I continued to try. My whole reflection shows me what it was that I wanted. From selling yugioh cards that I stole from kids to my first pencil and pen business that I made in elementary school. I even saw all the friends I made and how they all treated me. You can say the window to my soul was a good one, a good one in deed.
An interesting thing the reflection also shows you the not so great times, like when you broke your step moms son's collar bone, or when you broke some girls heart without knowing it, or the first time you cheated on a girl for the sake of being cool. Yea I know we all have been there, and done that. You see the for me the reflection shows the decisions I made, like wanting to marry my career. Studying instead of being a normal boy, reading. You know not being a kid, and my personal favorite never noticing peoples feelings. Yea our reflections never seem to miss a beat. For me its whenever I look out my window that I see all the wrongs I did. My personal favorite is the reflections of my heart.
Its weird really, how my reflection shows me how I had a loving and beautiful girl by my side, who truly wanted a future with me. In my reflection it showed the pain I caused, the tears I shed. It showed the promise before god, it showed me caring. Then it showed the fights, our anger. The annoying each other. It showed her silently crying, It showed me it all, the reflection doesn't lie to us, and it doesn't pull no punches. It showed me my true inner feelings, and it showed me what I could have done to make things better, but you know we go against that little voice in our head and look what it does. Makes you mess things up, well to me honestly. It likes to show me that mistake over and over again, sometimes it shows me other things but mostly things that I truly could have made better. I wish I had a time machine, so I could go and make this reflection go away. That way it will be just a memory. You know what they say your reflections try to show you what you really want.
Have you ever stared out your window, and saw your life? Like everything you have done, from the first piece of candy you stole all the way down to the time you woke up this morning. Have you ever sat there staring out and seeing everything so crystal so clear, that you can't stare away. Like watching your first fist fight, and saying to yourself man we couldn't fight back then, or seeing your first kiss and thinking man I remember her I hope she is doing well for herself. I know all this far to well, we all have that window to the soul, a window or a mirror that we stare at and we see our life. Not like the whole life flashes before our eye kind of thing, but like a thorough outlook on our life. Like when you saw that toy another kid had so you cried to your mom till she got it for you. What about the time you promised to do something you said you wouldn't do but you did it anyway, did you smile or did you frown upon that decision.
For me I have had a plan for everything in my life, and as I look at my reflection all I see is a well planned out life. I never gave up on anything even when I did say I give up I continued to try. My whole reflection shows me what it was that I wanted. From selling yugioh cards that I stole from kids to my first pencil and pen business that I made in elementary school. I even saw all the friends I made and how they all treated me. You can say the window to my soul was a good one, a good one in deed.
An interesting thing the reflection also shows you the not so great times, like when you broke your step moms son's collar bone, or when you broke some girls heart without knowing it, or the first time you cheated on a girl for the sake of being cool. Yea I know we all have been there, and done that. You see the for me the reflection shows the decisions I made, like wanting to marry my career. Studying instead of being a normal boy, reading. You know not being a kid, and my personal favorite never noticing peoples feelings. Yea our reflections never seem to miss a beat. For me its whenever I look out my window that I see all the wrongs I did. My personal favorite is the reflections of my heart.
Its weird really, how my reflection shows me how I had a loving and beautiful girl by my side, who truly wanted a future with me. In my reflection it showed the pain I caused, the tears I shed. It showed the promise before god, it showed me caring. Then it showed the fights, our anger. The annoying each other. It showed her silently crying, It showed me it all, the reflection doesn't lie to us, and it doesn't pull no punches. It showed me my true inner feelings, and it showed me what I could have done to make things better, but you know we go against that little voice in our head and look what it does. Makes you mess things up, well to me honestly. It likes to show me that mistake over and over again, sometimes it shows me other things but mostly things that I truly could have made better. I wish I had a time machine, so I could go and make this reflection go away. That way it will be just a memory. You know what they say your reflections try to show you what you really want.
I
try not to stare out my window, it went from a peaceful neighborhood
to a memory of her and my life, I wish I could just break my window
and never see these reflections ever again, but I know that if I do I
wouldn't have a window and just freeze to death which sucks cause I
don't want spiders in my room either. Don't trust them fuckers.
The reflection on our lives vary from people to people, some are like hell yea I like it others are like, yea I hate my life so much. For me my reflection only shows the pain I caused someone really close and dear to me, someone who I love with all my heart. Stupid life why can't you just get it together, stupid reflection point less ass hell.
The reflection on our lives vary from people to people, some are like hell yea I like it others are like, yea I hate my life so much. For me my reflection only shows the pain I caused someone really close and dear to me, someone who I love with all my heart. Stupid life why can't you just get it together, stupid reflection point less ass hell.
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