K2

This year has been crazy, for us. Though you say that there was never an us anymore. I had you then I lost you, I got you back then lost you. I hurt you when I didn't mean to, I abused you when I didn't want to. I called you names, I hid things from you, Slammed you when I didn't mean it. Forgiveness isn't something that I want, its you that I am after. Like a fly on flame, I am drawn to you. Like a widow looking at the sea I wait for you. Stupid boy, idiot, moron, jackass. Is what I am to you. Spilled cups, that were perfectly balanced tipped off the table because of me. Regretting my choices in words that I said. For I have never felt this way towards any other woman then you. Shhh don't say a word I want to speak to your heart, for mine is about to speak while my mind goes to sleep.

I watched you from a far talked to you on the phone, fell in love with your words. Fell hard for your eyes. I spent hours thinking, hours spent sleepless, heart aching for you. For you touched me, brought out something in me. You silenced the science, you silenced the math, you even silenced the critical thinking. Time was spent looking at expensive gifts, Houses, homes, apartments, sweet sweet heaven. Hours spent on the perfect ring, days spent on the perfect chapel. Time wrote us a whole book full of wonders, and marvels. A book that was to be filled with magic and sorcery. A book wrote for two. Seconds felt like hours, hours felt like days, days to years.

found my chance, found my way to you. Ah yes the marriot room 401. Heaven, bliss, sweet sweet bliss. Felt your touch, felt your taste, became one with you, laid with you, worshiped you. Life outside of you is something I don't want to know. Shhh shhh don't neglect my words, cast them aside like they were little white lies. For this is truth that you are hearing, Written to you with sincere and heart shaped tears.

Do not forget me, like all the rest. Don't ever forget the tender kisses I placed on your neck. For I have not, wait no never forgotten your sweet sleeping face that laid next to me from the darkest of nights to sunniest of days. How could I forget the shrill of the cicadas, as I watched you sleep, their joy felt songs as a note was written and snuck into your purse, others placed secretly around the room for future guests to find, and learn of the joy, laughs, squeals that went on in that room. Please My dear sweet K of the nickname that was given to you. That will always be spoken from the tongue of this man.

For I will watch over you as time passes by, From your highs to your lows. Your sickness and your health. For one does not wish to lose someone with a tender touch like yours. Sometimes awaken in the long passing days, hands have been stared at remembering it you that were in them as I am no exception. For many men who have shared a bed with you, long forgotten and off their minds you have become, for this simple man you are the first to pop up. For I have seen you when you were curvy to when you shed that weight. To what you have become now. To grow with you, to grow for you, to strive to become something no one has been able to strive for. Is and will always be something to be looked forward to. For life has taken us apart, for the moment. A wish has been made to walk next to you on this lonely path that we humans call life.

My words may have cut deeper then any knife could, any gunshot. They were not meant, they were not meant to be hurtful for the fool who said them, that sad sad man, was a terrified soul, who lost his way. Lost it in a way that has not been lost before. For his heart wanted yours, wanted to live those moments again, to intertwine thy self with you. Like once before, to feel your touch, the softness of your skin, gentleness of your lips.

For said you have changed, a different heart that is no longer filled with my love or the love for me. As the memories of me fade from your mind, I do not wish to bring them back. One does not want to do that but wants to make something new. Something better, stronger, more satisfying. For you are something that is desirable. Something that is wanted, needed. Do not think to much of the blood that was shed, and the weapons left bloodied. Cast those aside, and step past them. Step off the battlefield that has been created, let it wither away into the sands of time. Forgive thine for the actions that have been done.

A whole new human was born, a whole new life was created, from your simple touch. Your simple love. For this human can't be without you, and wanting to not be cast aside like a old book after its pages are withered and torn.

K your love is unique, your love is everlasting to some. Tis one that no man, no woman, can ever forget. My dearest K don't say a word don't let your brain see, don't let your brain read, shhh shhh let your heart read, see and feel the words. For mine has taken over and written all that you see and feel.

You are the sun that lights up the sky, the rainbow after the rain, and the diamond in a pile of coal. K our bodies, and minds can change over time, but sometimes the feelings that we have don't. It feels like I am off at war, as you sit at home. I do not want nothing more but to feel your gentle touch again.