K4

I miss you, and I want you back. I keep rereading that letter, and the more it isn't true to me. I showed it around a lot and everyone who saw the work I put into us agree that I included you in everthing.

I find it hard to sleep at night because your not by my side, if I do sleep it's not for long I jump awake and I'm stuck awake.

My body aches and I can never stop shaking. It's quite the sight really. I am a mess without I really am.

I just wished you didn't leave like that we could have worked this out.

I'm not sure if your mad or if your even hurting by this, but honestly I'm dying.

I miss your voice I miss your laugh all I have is a 2 second video of your laugh.

I have nothing to remember your voice by. I got drunk and started talking to myself because I thought you were here.

This hurts a lot, and now I know how you feel. Stressed all the time, depressed not wanting to do anything anymore. I hate this feeling of dread.

I'll do what I always do and wait, I'll have us a place just incase too I'll have it maybe next week if I'm lucky.

I just like using those words "us" "we" because your the only woman for me. You complete me and I love you more then anything in the world.

I don't have much communication with my family since you left. You leaving pushed it over the edge.

You thought you were a burden but in fact you were a blessing to me. I trusted you a lot more then you thought.  You made so many decisions for me and you didn't know it. Which made me laugh really you did a lot more then you thought. You helped me change jobs so I can see you more. And at the dcg one job you told me to quit so I didn't kill myself and that's what I did.

I still love you and need you even if you think i dont.

I mean if you think about it if I didn't trust you I wouldn't have let you stay, bought you all those things. I wouldn't leave your phone on so we don't have to go through that trouble again.

I mean love bug you mean a lot to me, I did so much with your help.

Your my best friend, my wife and my whole universe. I hope you never forget that.

I always put you first in my decisions.

I never once not tell you anything. I told you everything because that is what you wanted. I was looking forward to coming to Florida with you. I wanted a new start and I still do.

So I'll wait like I always do, so don't think that I can't take care of you because I can. And I will continue to do so.

So I love you with every ounce of my body. And I'm looking forward to seeing you.

Cj