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I'm stressed, having anxiety attacks, and I can't control my breathing. I feel like I'm dying, I can't focus on what I'm doing and feel like I'm just failing at everything. I feel like I am nothing, useful, and I feel as if I want to die. The images won't stop coming back and I find it harder to be alone. I shake uncontrollably, and I fell back to old habits. I don't like this and I don't want this, I just feel like my existence is meaningless. When everyone says that I matter I don't feel like I do. I feel like shit all the time now and it has only been a week. It's getting worse day by day. I shake uncontrollably, I cry for no reason. But I haven't heard from her only seen pictures of her with someone else. It hurts bad because I need her. But now I'm broken again writing it all down, I feel like I never mattered like I was just the best of a bad situation I just want to lay down and sleep forever so i don't have to wake up.