The promise in room 401 and skype

The promise in room 401 and skype (she has forgotten)

These are my memories from 2015, the happiest times of my life. Memories that I remember that I know she has forgotten, I have never wrote this down before I just kept in my mind. This is why i can never give her up because i can't break this promise.

In 2015 I met this damaged girl, who had years of abuse abandonment, and personal health issues. She thought she was obese but I thought she was perfect. She had crazy colored hair, and was so gentle, kind and caring. I finally met her June 24th, 2015. After a long and annoying flight, I was on the east coast. I took a cab all the way to her home full of excitement and nervousness, but I was finally in front of her. She greeted me with a hug and shyness, then we cuddled and kissed.

Then we went to my hotel, room 401 near the end of the hall right by the stairs 4 floors up. I passed out instantly, due to jet lag.

I was awaken by her and I couldn't felt better, we spent the whole night exploring each other. The more I was around her the more I have never felt so complete.

The troubled, high strung, sociopathic tendencies were quieting down. I didn't feel anger, annoyance, nor anything negative. I felt happy, calm, and I knew she was the one I wanted to spend my life with.

I remember we were cuddled up talking and I told her I love her. She said it back but I said it again. Then I told her it I promise to love you forever and never let you go. She smiled, and kissed me. I really did mean it.

I was there for a week but I felt to energized, i got back and went back to work i was still talking to her about everything.

I don't remember the exact day but it was in 2015 as well that we were on Skype she was getting ready for bed and I was staying up. She had a tough day and I wasn't to happy about it either. She had faded into the night and was going to sleep I always watched her sleep because it gave her a piece of mind. She asked me a question and it will never leave my mind, she asked me if I loved her I told her yea, she asked me to never leave her and I told her I will never leave, she asked me to never give up on her either and I promised I wouldn't. She even went so far to say no matter what don't let her go. I didn't faulter. I told her of course not, your stuck with me for the rest of her life.  

She giggled and said that it made her happy.

Some more time passes things get rough. I asked her to wait for a week, and to my surprise she waited and had this huge smile on her face and said she was being a good wife and waited.

I was never so happy before. Never so grateful.

Though she had forgotten, I never have forgotten any of our memories, never will i forget the  promises I made and even the fact she has asked me even if she forgets and wants me to give up. I gave that angel woman my holy word.

We did break up and I regretted it I resented myself all I had to do was call her the next day but I didn't, and if I did her life would have been different from there on. But I didn't I couldn't pick up the phone, but I did keep my eyes on her texting her, checking on her never giving up on her.

Years pass and I still keep my eyes on her always remembering my promise to her. Never giving up on her encouring her, keeping her safe.

I still love her the same, she keeps me safe. I feel like a normal human.

She always tells me to give up on her but I can't do that there is still so much to be done, I still have to bring her complete happiness and joy in her life. She needs to know that she will never be alone again because I am there, always there no matter what.

Though times change we do fight say nasty stuff argue, I still am in love with her and I only have eyes for her because I know that I can end her suffering so she can always smile.

But now I want to add just in case she every forgets I promise not just to give up on you, and to always love you no matter what, but I promise that you'll always be first, and I promise to always tell you everything. I promise to never make you feel like this again.

It's now 2018 and I've spent three wonderful years loving that woman.....and I still do...