Wont read this

I dont know what to say, I dont know what to write, all I want is you. I dont want to fight. I guess I'm the only one in pain. My best friend angel disappeared and hasn't been seen in a week. I dont talk to my mom anymore because shes lost it. I like to think you read my blog, but I guess I am the fool for thinking that. I have nothing left, and i can't even see you anymore. You've completely shut me out, and you dont even notice me anymore. I dont like this and i dont want this but. I guess you really want your space from me. But i forgive because i love you, you can think about all of the bad thoughts about me. And I'll wear what you say proudly, but I'll wait for you like I always do. Even though you dont like that, but I'll wait, I normally check messenger just so I can the pictures of you, I didnt mean to message you. I just love seeing you, it gives me strength and the will to go on. I know your probably not going to read this but I'm going to just put this here just in case if you miss me and love me. I'll keep waiting, I'll give smokey lots of love for you, and I'll tell him your not coming back for a while. I really wanted to spend the summer with you, to lay on the beach with you. But I guess right now you want to be alone or whatever. I have so much to say so much to tell you. All of the good news all of the bad news but I guess I will wait to tell you. I didnt want you to block me so I could always see your smile. I know you probably dont care wont listen but hey I love you, I honestly really do. Anyway I'll be here like i always am. Alone this time because everyone around me has lost it, and I have no where else to go. I look forward to seeing you and hearing your voice but. Like I said I know you probably wont read this but hey this will be here, I love you love bug.