Crying letter

Lovebug,

I know you kept our chat brief, and I know you must hate me, but though I am in Henderson I miss you. I do have your stuff still because i could never let someone throw you out while I am here. So I have it in my storage with my stuff, I am planning on setting it in the room once I head back to Washington in the summer, my friend is getting married so I wonder if you would like to come with me....but I know you, you wouldn't come so I just thought I'd ask anyway....

Life has been great I got a job as a graphic designer in Panama city, and I am on my own. No one knows that I am here other then you just so I can focus on me and building a place that we can be in peace. I go to the beach weekly, and I sometimes play the guitar when I am there. I like this place and i know you will too....

I also need to go get smokey, because the place I am at allows dogs and I found out that smokey is 38.5 lbs so he is qualified for this place. 

They even allow cats too.

I know your going to say something bad about me messaging you and I am sorry I just wanted to talk to you and see how you are.

I do love you more then anything and I do miss you, and I'm working hard for you. So you don't have to kill yourself in the end. 

It doesn't matter if I have demi, she can't replace you in my life. Because you have my heart and nothing can ever change that. She knows that you have my heart, and I'm sorry.

I hope we can start over and talk like we use to but I know that it will take time. 

I hope your blessing the world with your beautiful smile, because that can always brighten up the world with it.

I miss your beauty, and how you always brightened up my world.

Anyway work has been tough because the designs are behind and I just started so I have to try and catch it up. The last designer screwed up so much and the director screws me up sometimes, other than that I love it. I have been doing my own work as well. I dont really know how to live for myself since the only thing I want out of life is you. So all I can do is continue to build something for you.

On better news I won three design contests and I won an award, that I couldn't have done without you. So i owe you so much more to the point where it's getting to where i owe you my life. 😁❤

I know you hate that I say this but i can't go back on my word, I have always loved taking care of you and I'm sorry your my baby and I do like babying you. 

So your home will be ready for you when you're ready.

Anyway please don't reply till your ready, so I'll be waiting like always please be safe and dont be afraid to call or text me I miss you and love you. Check your email I put some of my new work in it.

-Cj