Depression

It sucks so bad, food goes right through you. Your constantly thirsty from upset stomach. You have like no energy to do anything. The sunlight is your enemy, and (for me at least) I find it hard to show I am ok. It never gets any better. It gets worse I can't sleep at night. All i do is curl into a ball and just want to cry, the same images play in my head over and over again it gets no easier. I don't have the energy to fight, to train to design all I do is take some sleeping pills and pray that I don't wake up. Because at least through then I will be out of this pain. Cold sweats and chattering teeth I just want it all to end. I just want to see her is that so bad.