K7

It's never the same when your gone, it never is since 2015 when we first met I literally knew you were the one for me, we both knew we  were ment for each other a lot of my friends who bashed you back then knew it too. I came back more relaxed and happy. But when we broke up I felt part of me disappear happiness and joy, something I didnt know how to feel because I never had someone like you who can make me put my goals second to listen to you. My life burns and crashes when you are gone, but you never seem to understand it. How you are my angel how much I cherish you, your goals and dreams. I cant stand when I cant see you or talk to you. I miss your smile hearing your voice.

It's never the same when I read manga, or webtoon because I would look up at you and smile, kiss you and/or curl myself around you. Now when I read I just see an image of you smiling and gently stroking my face. Which makes me smile and deep inside melt and blush. Reading the manga now doesnt mean much to me it went from wanting to do it to it holds no meaning.

The pain you leave me with never goes away, it subdies and it just feels the huge hole in my heart. Which just brings on the numb feeling, I know you hate it but it's true. Never once in my life have I felt the way I do with you. You think that your replaceable but your not to.

Your strong, but what you dont see is that your stronger when we are together, the decisions you made helped out a lot. You had a goal that you wanted to do, and I wanted to help you along away.

It never feels the same anymore when I wake up in the morning, I use to wake up as you slept tuck you in and gently move the hair from your face. You would stick out your hand and I would always smile and hold it, you would smile and purr and my heart would stop. Whenever I walked out of the room I would be sad, I would be mad because I hated leaving your side. Now I wake up with nothing to look forward to. No one to say I will give my all for I'm going to get us there, to our destination.

You say live for me but sadly I cant do, I'm not loyal because I want to I'm loyal because I have never felt so safe, it's like in the animes the main guy protects and stands by the main girl because she does something to him. It's kind of like that. It's hard honestly and I'm sorry.

My life is never the same without you. When I watch YouTube my first instinct is to go to markiplier but what's the point I dont get the same excitement from it. Or anything else we watched.

You'll always be my little love bug, I miss you and I love you. I wish I could just kill myself because I think life would be better for the both of us, you cant lie it would be better.