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I lay in bed awake at night
A restless soul
Scrolling through my phone looking at pictures of you
Flashback

I think back to the way it was the smiles, laughs, the happiness
Feeling the exhilaration

The thoughts of the promises that we made fill my mind
House, kids,cat and a dog.
The american dream,

With the swipe of my finger, I see it all
The memories fall like rain storm

In the darkness your face appears lighting up the room
My shinning light in the darkness.

My head is spinning,
Thoughts overflowing
Images playing
Movies on repeat

Behind this cage of ribs
In between the sacks I fill with air
Where that organ is

The one that is now unfinished

We can turn it around
A simple flight to the east

Simple push of a button that we call reset

Then all our worries, pain, stress and depressions
Can be now null

With just a swipe of the finger
With just the distal phalange
Reliving all those memeories
All the movies on hallmark

I fall for you all over again
Tripping on the chords in my brain

Each neuron, tangling up my legs

Stuck and want to be free
Running from the fears
Never ending rest

The want, the need, the desire
For this home to be your home

This bed doesnt feel right
Filled with strangers
Never feels right

Their smiles
My frowns
Same book just different pages

This never ending void
Never ending numbness
Feeling empty
What's it like to be filled

To have that again

What we had
Our awkward love
Our awkward life

Two souls one body
Intermingling
Like a type of dance that has not ceased

The need of you fills this void
The lovely look in your eyes
The fact that you touch me
Whenever you stroll by

The fear we shared together
Us without each other
Just one lives in the fear
The other in a fantasy

One picture
One picture
One picture
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Swipe
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I was close almost there
It was for you
It was always for you

The money
The long hours

To set you free
For you to have the house of your dreams

I miss you

This pine in my chest
The grieve that is there
Is for you

Speak your sweet tune to me
Fill this void again with your accent
Speak unto me like it once was

You'll always be my juliet
The woman I admire
Glamour
Favor

It won't work
It can't work
We aren't ment to be

Yet we can make it work
We actually are meant to be

Two stars aligned
That many others find divine
Jealous of what we are
Destructive on their ways

Its nature honey
Take what they cant have
Steal from a neighbor

Lies
Lies
Lies
One truth that stick

You say I'm better than this

In your eyes you don't see it
Your ears you dont hear
Your lips wont speak it

The strength I possess slips by your sight
The echoes of my voice asking for your opinion drowned out by the sounds of false speaking people
Your lips won't speak you have an idea
Mouth covered by the hands of the shadows that dont want to see you be something they cannot have.

I'm swiping away wishing you would stay
Here with me with the sights, the sounds and the smells of the new world

The one we can build
The one made for two
I say unto to you

I miss you
I love you

Now and forever

Sorry guys it's been a crazy couple of weeks. I mean getting settled still. There is so much that I need and want to fill this emptiness that I call a house. But it is getting there, if you havent already go to instagram (kitsunes_life) and check out my vlog a new video will be out tomorrow so be ready for that.

If you are reading this, I hope your ok I miss you and I'm doing everything I can to make you a home where it is just us. I miss you and love you, I have so much to tell you. I love you love bug.